A Suicide...

b.p.c. · Post by **b.p.c.** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 2:36 am

some of you may know i have a strong family history of depression and anxiety, well how ironic is it that of all the places in the city a our neighbor's brother decides to park the truck directly outside of my bedroom and pulls the trigger on himself waking up everybody, and the girl is franticly screaming to her husband as he calls 911, and 6+ cops show up with crime scene tap, and 6 cop cars with an ambulance, i knew when i saw the tap come out that a body was in there and i began to shake and panic, thinking if it was'nt him it could have been me. i don't know if i will be on tomorrow, i'm just .... in shock. out of all the places in this city and the guy just had to do it right outside my bedroom. it was more over to their part of the yard but that's as close as it gets folks and that was way too close to home for me. i'm thinking about seeing the neighbors and how she is feeling, but i'm seriously shaking but i'll be back.

Geme · Post by **Geme** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 3:02 am

river all i really can say it wow......but if you need help see a counsiler.  i wish i did when i went through my depression a few years back.  i hope it helps.<br>

b.p.c. · Post by **b.p.c.** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 3:30 am

i'll be ok, just alot of flashbacks, i'm in major shock still. i .... can't believe it right now. 1 sec u hear a loud thunder sound as if somebody's car is fucked up and the next min all hell breaks lose, screaming, cops, ppl everywhere, all these cops cars, toe truck, ambulance, all at our freakin front door. i'm just overwhelmed. not everyday i get someone committing suicide outside of what i consider to be a peacefull place. i wish i would have stayed up and seen him around their house and could have ran into him by chance and could have talked to him... i don't know, ill never forget this. trying to get through my anxiety and depression everyday, then this. the last thing i needed on my mind was this. something i felt comfortable to go to is now (2 hours later) ..... i don't know how to explain it, but the cops had to park in the driveway cuz both our neighbors driveway are less than ten yards apart, they had to get the spotlight in there to take pictures. just scares me. i don't know.
as if it happened there just to get my direct and full attention... that's how close it was, not even 10 feet, how do you wake up to something like that. mm.

Kjed · Post by **Kjed** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 5:25 am

idk how exactly it feels for it to happen right in front of your house, but one of my good friends commited suicide in his bathroom a week after my birthday, at first when some one told me, i couldnt believe, the kid was always happy, but he really did, and i just, didnt even know what to think... like wow... hes gone, im not gonna see him any more, like no more drinking buddy, no more mike to crack jokes with, just, no more mike.... it makes you feel empty... but i personally have a psychological issue with psychiatrists(ironic eh?) so i wish you well with yours and hope you can deal with it. if you wanna talk about it, be sure to send me a pm, and ill talk to ya bro.

Post by **Archangelus** » Sat Dec 31, 2005 11:01 am

Very sorry to hear this, especially in what is usually such a happy time of year (yet, also one of the most depressing for some people...). If you need someone to talk to, just let me know.

We're all here for you!